It's been a really long time since I updated this site , and I'm sorry 
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But most importantly , yesterday was my birthday ! 
I'm 17 now :) I feel really old ! I still feel like time is stuck in a loop . I'm trying really hard to get out of that loop , but it's really hard sometimes >//<
My birthday was boring , as always . But I watched a really beautiful movie :) It was called '' All about Lily Chou-Chou '' . A beautiful , yet heartbreaking movie . I recommend you watch it if you want a different kind of movie :)
I hope you'll enjoy it , if you really watch it
I'm trying to get back on track , updating my site more , since I have all this free time. Looks like we can't get out of the house because of this virus outbreak . Just remember to stay safe ! Wash your hands , all that stuff !!
I promise I'll work harder so I could finally finish this site !! It's been like a year since I'm here .. (￣▽￣)
For now , here are some pictures from the movie I watched yesterday . I really liked the landscapes.
Rest well , you beautiful angel 
You didn't deserve such a horrible and painful death . You were everything for me
It hurts to say goodbye , but maybe now you feel better and happier .
Maybe you are in a better place now .
I know you're waiting for me , right around the corner~
12/24/2019
Happy birthday Eli Ayase <3
Also,sorry 4 the inactivity , school started and it sucks // But I'll be sure to update some more things !!
10/21/2019 ♡i hate this so much im never getting out of the house again no one cares i do not care i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it
there is no reason to go out this isn't even real it's just an optical illusion there is literally no reason to leave your house
i will spend my time in the backrooms
i hate it
My dissociation is getting worse and worse ; i feel disconnected from my body and from what I'm seeing . I've been dreaming a lot , I can't tell the difference between my dreams and reality 
I'm aware of my breathing , blinking, touching,everything ; it is troublesome . I feel like I'm missing out on everything,like I'm not even here , not even real. Like im in a simulator//
But I know I'm not alone , I'm not myself . I never was ; there's always a chilling sensation at the back of my head,like somebody is watching me . Who is it ? I always turn my head. Who is it?
I can't see it. You can't see it. But there's always someone there ; the voice in your head , the sensation at the back of your head , the impulsive heart beats you get from time to time . You are never alone ; You aren't yourself
One day she will go away ; or maybe she will take control over things,over everything I've achieved until now.
I know I'm not imagining things . If I we're imagining things , I wouldn't have these feelings and perceptions //
Maybe things will get better ?
